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Name: Nikki
Birthday: 11/22/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: I love to hang with my friends... when I can and of course, being with my wonderful FIANCE, Matt, who I've been with for over 4 years!
Expertise: Back at Cedarville University in the gool 'ol nursing program!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
Member Since:
10/20/2003
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| Today I say goodbye to xanga.... I can't post here anymore. no more typing my thoughts just to get them out of my head. No more chatting to an old friend. Now, it's just on the phone or written down somewhere, not here. Can't be here anymore. Too many people... people who have no business looking but of course they do anyway. People who question everything I write, even though I'm venting and then don't believe my answers. So, fair well dear xanga, fair well. | | |
| I wish I had a room I could go to and scream and cry and yell. But I don't. I can't vent anywhere for fear of people seeing it and then getting mad or spreading things and being all crazy in my business. So, maybe if I ever buy a house, I will build a little room with sound proof walls, plenty of tissues for crying, some great insulation on the walls for those moments I throw my head at it and go there as often as I please (which is pretty often). I can't wait to have this room..... now I just need to find a house...hmmmm | | |
| "When you're gone, pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone, the face I came to know is missing too. When you're gone the words I need to hear to always make it through the day, and make it okay I miss you........" I hate feeling lonely. I hate wanting to cry every time I hang up the phone. I hate being alone. I hate the empty apartment. I hate the empty, cold bed. I hate it all. I hate going places alone. I hate finding out amazing things alone. I hate finding out my future alone. I hate everything associated with being alone. It f'ing sucks. | | |
| I can't believe my wedding is in 4 days.... dang! then it's off to Hawaii for 2 weeks! | | |
| 6 weeks and 6 days.... Am I ready for this? Lots of response cards have come in already and the invitations only went out last Tuesday! How exciting! I have my first fitting on Wednesdayand order flowers next Monday... time is going by so quickly it's scary.... Lots of thoughts.... not sure what to do with them.... hopefully I can sort them out.. Life is crazy sometimes, huh? Congrats to my best friend Sam on her engagement!!!! (I guess you too, Nemo, although you didn't take me shopping with you but I suppose I will forgive you) | | |
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